I am depressed. Deeply, horribly, I-can’t-fucking-take-this-anymore depressed.
Time to learn something.
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Sorry you’re having a rough time. I don’t really know what to say either, but figured a lame comment was better than nothing. Hope this is short-lived.
Sorry to hear it, sweetie. You’re right though – action is much better than sitting around thinking. The martial arts suggestion (above) is a good one, I think! … See you soon-ish, I hope!
H xx
when I get like that, which fortunately isn’t too often, I look for something to change. It can be a small something or a big something, but whatever it is it needs to be necessary. Like the day I decided I needed to learn Spanish to improve my life (details unnecessary). Within four hours I had found a language school and bought a plane ticket to Guatemala. Even small changes can alter your entire life if they alter your inner landscape. This feeling will propel you to a better place in your life, so hang in there.
Are you saying you want to learn something specific – weaving overshot, identifying ferns, sky-diving – or are you saying that YOU need to learn something from all the poop you’ve just been through? Or if you’re seriously depressed and that happens often in your life, or friends have commented about it, then go see the doc about getting checked for depression. If you need something new to learn, anything’ll do. If you need to learn more about yourself, well, that’s the hard part. I’m not good at it myself. Try writing things down. Try looking at stuff you’ve done well, and deducing what sort of person you must be if you are the sort who can do X. Talk to people.
In the meantime, eat well, see friends, walk a lot, and take your vitamins.
Okay, your first two sentences are scary and have me concerned. I’m seconding Lynn’s post and adding on that it’d be really nice to get an update with more info.
What I meant by that last post was I need to learn something new.
I’ve learned over time that making myself get engaged in something and
learning is a very good way to get myself out of depression. When I
was younger and depression hit, it would put me into a state of
despair and I’d think that there was no way it would ever get better.
Now that I’m older and have a little more experience, I realize that’s
not true – it always does get better. I just need to shake the funk
I’m in right now. And the funk-shaking began last night right after I
wrote that post. I sat down with my laptop and a grilled cheese
sandwich and worked out how to dynamically change parts of a CSS style
with Javascript. Everything else fell away, I stopped focusing on how
bad I felt, and I woke up this morning feeling a little bit better.
Good! This was me checking back in to make sure I hadn’t blithely suggested you take a Tai Chi class when I should actually have made you get your a$$ to a doctor, stat! 😉 Glad to hear you’re doing ok, even if you never do reply to my emails. Miss you!
H x
I think Mark has a super idea. Include the first knitting injury…that would be a good intro. don’t you think? I still think you should write a book! 😉
August 4th, 2008 at 8:02 pm
Learn something that makes money.
(I finally started violin lessons with your old violin, btw)
August 4th, 2008 at 8:23 pm
Good idea. Action is a good antidote for depression.
August 4th, 2008 at 8:37 pm
Yup. It’s good to wallow, for a while…but not too long.
August 4th, 2008 at 8:42 pm
I never have good advice for these sorts of things. But sometimes it’s enough to know that someone else has been there and clawed their way out.
August 4th, 2008 at 8:56 pm
Sorry you’re having a rough time.
I don’t really know what to say either, but figured a lame comment was better than nothing. Hope this is short-lived.
August 4th, 2008 at 10:48 pm
Yeah. Well. Stay busy. Learning something is a good idea. Keep your mind occupied with new stuff. Hang in there…
August 4th, 2008 at 11:39 pm
Take a martial art.
Good way to relieve stress
heh…. I’m thinking i should take my own advice.
i know of this awesome place down the street from us, were my son and hubby go. The atmosphere is very relaxed and family like.
or you can borrow my mandolin. Then you can teach me. All i know is a very slow “John Henry” LOL.
August 5th, 2008 at 4:24 am
Sorry to hear it, sweetie. You’re right though – action is much better than sitting around thinking. The martial arts suggestion (above) is a good one, I think! … See you soon-ish, I hope!
H xx
August 5th, 2008 at 6:14 am
I can send you a drop spindle, then you can make your own yarn for hose.
August 5th, 2008 at 8:09 am
If you find something that works, let me know.
August 5th, 2008 at 10:42 am
when I get like that, which fortunately isn’t too often, I look for something to change. It can be a small something or a big something, but whatever it is it needs to be necessary. Like the day I decided I needed to learn Spanish to improve my life (details unnecessary). Within four hours I had found a language school and bought a plane ticket to Guatemala. Even small changes can alter your entire life if they alter your inner landscape. This feeling will propel you to a better place in your life, so hang in there.
August 5th, 2008 at 11:37 am
Are you saying you want to learn something specific – weaving overshot, identifying ferns, sky-diving – or are you saying that YOU need to learn something from all the poop you’ve just been through? Or if you’re seriously depressed and that happens often in your life, or friends have commented about it, then go see the doc about getting checked for depression. If you need something new to learn, anything’ll do. If you need to learn more about yourself, well, that’s the hard part. I’m not good at it myself. Try writing things down. Try looking at stuff you’ve done well, and deducing what sort of person you must be if you are the sort who can do X. Talk to people.
In the meantime, eat well, see friends, walk a lot, and take your vitamins.
“Yes, Mom.”
I heard that eye-rolling, young man.
August 5th, 2008 at 11:38 am
Just re-read your post. Go see a doctor. I’m worried about you.
August 5th, 2008 at 2:15 pm
Okay, your first two sentences are scary and have me concerned. I’m seconding Lynn’s post and adding on that it’d be really nice to get an update with more info.
August 5th, 2008 at 2:24 pm
I’m okay, I swear!
Here’s the response I e-mailed Lynn:
Thank you, I appreciate your concern.
What I meant by that last post was I need to learn something new.
I’ve learned over time that making myself get engaged in something and
learning is a very good way to get myself out of depression. When I
was younger and depression hit, it would put me into a state of
despair and I’d think that there was no way it would ever get better.
Now that I’m older and have a little more experience, I realize that’s
not true – it always does get better. I just need to shake the funk
I’m in right now. And the funk-shaking began last night right after I
wrote that post. I sat down with my laptop and a grilled cheese
sandwich and worked out how to dynamically change parts of a CSS style
with Javascript. Everything else fell away, I stopped focusing on how
bad I felt, and I woke up this morning feeling a little bit better.
I’m going to be okay, I promise.
August 5th, 2008 at 4:35 pm
Good! This was me checking back in to make sure I hadn’t blithely suggested you take a Tai Chi class when I should actually have made you get your a$$ to a doctor, stat! 😉 Glad to hear you’re doing ok, even if you never do reply to my emails. Miss you!
H x
August 5th, 2008 at 5:15 pm
Let’s make a movie. Seriously.
August 5th, 2008 at 10:27 pm
I think Mark has a super idea. Include the first knitting injury…that would be a good intro. don’t you think? I still think you should write a book! 😉